Ray of Light Pt 2 Review

WATCH FRIDAY'S EPISODE HERE

Eclare/Eli
I was actually really enjoying the episode until the end because it was so unexpected and though Degrassi usually hits us with surprises, I didnt think there was any sign of it or rather I didnt think they would break them up again. But it just really upset me in the relationship, breakup seems to be their only solution. But I do think Eli was somewhat hypocritical. He was hassling Clare as to why he didnt talk to him about Asher and when she told him, they resolved things and now he has a drug problem, she wants to help him and apparently she's being too overprotective? That is the most absurd, hypocritical thing ever. And him needing space? Did he not forget that they were supposed to be all in and breakup is the way to fix things? And he was upset when Clare left when it got hard and now he is? I was so disappointed with Eli in the episode, especially at the end, that smirk he does. Ugh, how can you be satisfied seeing her so heartbroken? Im done

On the other hand, I did really enjoy high Eli. His streaking and ugh so adorable. But on the other hand, his comment to Clare. So confusing and just what? To quote: "Remember when you said you wouldnt have sex with me because I was too damaged?" That was completely out of line for him to blame Clare for that, drugged up or not. But the scene with Simpson and Bullfrog really touched me. We could see how much he's  been affected especially after Julia and I do feel bad for him but drugs is only making things worst for him. But Im happy he finally came to terms and realized that he needs to figure out another way to cope.

Brilliant acting on Munro's part though.

And Eli was wearing the jacket he wore in DTW. I should have saw it coming

Jatie

"Jake was my rock" Cute Eclare reminder. I really think Jatie will get together by the end of the season, the bond being reopened up with the garden, I think they'll be able to hang out again and realize that they still like each alot and work well together. Jake and Katie being content and being friends again, tears because they are such a cute, chill couple.

Jonnor

I think Jonnor is absolutely adorable and its time he's with someone because he's so sweet. I love his personality in the relationship, he's so blunt and legit says anything on his mind. "Well that technically qualifies as dating..Should I kiss you now?" Too cute. So glad Jenna didnt give up on Connor for the punch, I feel it'll be a dramaless couple, as dramaless as a couple can be

Yearbook video was such a tear striking part, sigh. Not ready for them to graduate and just move on at all. And I felt the video was actually the actors themselves rather than the characters which made it hurt even more. And apparently we're gonna have a graduation at the end of the season and I am dreading every moment.

Overall it was a very good episode, but being an eclare shipper, I couldnt help but be disappointed. But I think all these couples will actually be endgame but I shouldnt predict anything because after all, nothing I want ever happens.

 

What Its Like To Be A Degrassian?

I feel like no one really understands our love for Degrassi besides us and it gets really frustrating. There's so much that makes us a Degrassian especially a Degrassian in the fandom,  where to begin?

most accurate picture to describe it.

PAIN
I think thats number one because we go through alot of pain dealing with our own feels. We have no control over our emotions and I think we're probably to blame for that but its so annoying because its like how dare you make this happen on the show, I didnt ask for this and it basically throws your whole life out of wack. We're not even functioning human beings anymore like it takes a special skill to go through all the pain we're put through and still watch the show and willingly put yourself through pain.

FEELS
AKA THE REASON I HATE EVERYTHING. why even be in my own relationship when im already overwhelmed with the feels of a fictional couple, i mean i dont have time for a real life relationship. MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR FEELS PLEASE. where to begin? ugh i hate them, they legit come at any moment and its so frustrating, i be scrolling down my timeline or dash and see a random picture of eclare, dolly j or any couple i ship and its a rush of emotions and it cant be expressed and my mind is struggling to get the right words out while typing this because when you have feels,you cant explain it properly because too many emotions going on to even be normal for a second. And just ships and ugh they are so perfect, I want to choke them because how dare you look and kiss each other like that knowing it drives me insane.

i cant take it, sigh. I didnt choose this life.

BEING AMERICAN

THE STRUGGLE, I HATE BEING AMERICAN, I HATE BEING HERE, I WAS MEANT TO BE IN CANADA WITH ALL THOSE PERFECT PEOPLE. And Canadians are so lucky and I mean I dedicate my life to Canada anyway, I should just automatically be obligated to a certified canadian, its annoying because i wish I could walk down the streets of Toronto in hopes of bumping into one of the cast members or even to go in to audition, sigh i wish. ITS A HARD KNOCK LIFE FOR US. Its hard to explain if youre not American but basically, its like you're a watermelon on an apple tree and YOU DONT BELONG. AND YOU KNOW WHERE YOU BELONG BUT YOU JUST CANT GET THERE BECAUSE OF STUPID STUFF LIKE MONEY AND WHAT NOT.


NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
In real life, no one gets it. They know you're obsessed but they dont really know. When I need to express my feels, they kind of nod and brush it off but they dont really care but I need them to at least act like it so I can feel like Im not wasting my breath. But they seriously think you're weird and strange and they dont understand if I cancel plans for Degrassi, they dont understand . And I hate when Im talking to a friend and they're like "Oh yeah I watched the old Degrassi, I dont watch this crap"
TAKE A MOMENT SO I DONT SHOOT YOU.
i actually cant take it and I dont mind if you like the old Degrassi better, thats on you but you dont even watch the new one, you cant even have an opinion on it. And if you say that to be my face, 99% chance I secretly hate you, you know I dedicate my life to this, why would you say that to me. can you just not, this is why Im on the internet all the time because no one understands in the real world. Its a cold world out there.

Did I miss anything?  To conclude with another picture of what its like to live this life.

Bittersweet Symphony Review. RIP CAM

I think everyone can see the toll this episode had on us. 

So I was really satisfied with this episode. It was absolutely realistic although watching it, I kind of had no idea what was going on, couldnt process anything and kind of hated my entire existence and the writers' as well. 
So the episode tonight was obviously heartbreaking and so fsgfgesfhada.

We all knew pretty much Cam was going to die but until Simpson actually said, "Campbell Saunders is dead", it didnt really kicked in. I think it was kind of ironic they started the episode with us having this hope for eclare with eclare sexy times and then the rest is legit hell.

They jumped right into the storyline. Maya's reaction to Cam's death wasnt surprising. I have cousins' whose mother died and didnt shed a single tear. And it was strange on my part because I was crying and thinking of my mom dying is something no child wants to think about. But then again everyone copes in different ways which I think we all need to take in account with Maya's reaction. 

But I think she took it too far with the speech at the vigil. 

Maya: "This is stupid. Cam doesnt deserve a candlelight vigil." To say Cam didnt deserve the respect of everyone in the school was a bit too much. I understand she's coping differently but insulting and disrespecting someone who committed suicide is so selfish especially with Becky saying that it was selfish and stupid of Cam to do that was too far. 

When Maya stared at her phone though and rewatched Cam's video to her about kidnapping Hoot, I actually died. Like omg, I was dealing with feels. Because obviously camaya being endgame is already eliminated off our list. But that video legit played with my feels, to see his face again ):

Dallas' reaction to the suicide. Can we just applaud Demetrius' acting. We never saw this side of him and I loved it. When he's yelling at Alli, ""You knew he had problems. He was crying, he was upset. Why didnt you do something? You should of done something. YOU DID NOTHING"

Dallas is absolutely bawling and you can tell how guilty he was and then on the roof, I couldnt deal. I was convinced he was going to jump so thank the lord Fiona was there to convince him out of it. 

So we dont know how Cam died, so many theories but we never are going to find out. To quote Stefan somewhat: "We felt it didnt add to the purpose of the storyline" Along those lines, so they didnt want to showcase how, the purpose was to show the effects of bullying which I think they accurately portrayed.

And Jake and Eli, that scene was so random, I think it was just for comedic and filler purposes. But I think there was some foreshadowing.
Jake: Is my greenhouse going to be haunted now? Eli: No, just me.
I think Eli is going to suffer from nightmares because of this and we're going to see how it really takes a toll on him. 

And I loved how everyone was effected and they showed how even if you dont have a personal connection with the person or they werent your best friend, it still influences you. I just dont know how Im going to process Dylan not being on the show anymore. Read his closing on Facebook here 

I think it was interesting how they chose Eli to find the body especially with his experiences of death, we can tell its going to take a toll on him in the next episode based on the promo even after he said "I attract death." That was obviously some foreshadowing because of what happened tonight. This will take forever to sink in

And  WHAT IS WITH DEGRASSI AND THE NUMBER 22? Someone on tumblr pointed out Julia died on the 22nd, this episode came out on the 22nd, Drop the World came on the 22nd. So weird. 

--------XXX-------XXXX------MUCHTALKS which you can watch here. 
So thankfully I still got to watch it though Im American, they uploaded it. And to be honest, it hit me more than the episode especially the stories in the audience and  hearing Aislinn share her personal story with possible depression, it just shows how comment these thoughts are, whether its minor depression or suicidal thoughts. But I think Muchtalks was a brilliant idea and this definitely had the impact as previous episodes like Time Stands Still and Rock This Town. Im really excited to see how it plays out in the rest of the season but Im really going to miss Dylan, he had an amazing season.
If you ever feel the need to talk about depression or suicide: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/   1-800-668-6868 / kidshelpphone.ca

See the cast reacting to finding out about Cam's death here

Bittersweet Symphony Episode, Promo Review, Theories + Sneak Peek (Spoilers)

Okay so you guys know probably because youre reading from your grave: THE PREMIERE OF DEGRASSI 12C WAS LAST NIGHT.
WATCH IT HERE
This episode was absolutely amazing but it upset me that we didnt get an hour premiere.
So to get started with the storylines:

Cam and Maya were so cute. And it reminded me of Eclare in end of s10. Being overprotective, people telling Clare to look up and same for people with Cam and Maya. But the sleepover reassured my feels and it was absolutely the cutest thing, especially them cuddling and watching that video.But the video Cam left on Maya's phone had to be the cutest thing and he just likes her so much, I cant But then we get THIS

I knew it was too good to be true, when are we ever happy for long. For one, lets point the meanings behind the text. It could mean the relationship is over, HIS LIFE IS OVER OR BOTH WHICH I CANT DEAL WITH. I think he is gonna die and he's telling her its over before he does and I just... I dont know. AND ZIG OMFG I WANTED TO HURT HIM, he was being so selfish and he was legit testing Cam, like you need to know when you take a step too far. But then again my theories had me believing it could possibly be Adam, thought it is a weird theory, he hasnt been in any promos and that would explain why Eli and Clare were even more shaken up and Tori and Tris since theyre close to Adam from the play. Just a guess. 

Side note: Really loved the Alli and Cam relation, that talk helped him alot and her rejecting Dallas, I really loved her in this episode and I actually would have really loved a long term friendship with Alli and Cam.

Next storyline: No one has how much I wanted to hurt Dave for tempting Eli. I liked Dave but leave Eli alone, let him be happy with Clare. But I know Eli was tempted, who wouldnt be? But he should not read her diary. Like he said if they shared everything, he shouldnt even feel tempted to but actually this scene below made me so happy. 

But the locker scene was so amazing, gave me a little hope and possibly foreshadow that theyll move in together at a point, preview of the hell Eli will endure when they do with Clare's girly stuff allll over. So cute. And Clare, why do you have a shirtless picture of a guy in your BOYFRIEND'S locker?

Eli was actually so passive of the diary and he was going to overlook it like in the gif with his little smile, which made me really happy he realized it wasnt his concern and shes happy with him now. But she bought it up and kind of liked the tension because Eli was jealous, Clare look like she had sexy time hair and I just loved this scene. They looked so cute, a little bit but not too much drama and Eli in the beginning of the scene was being such an amazing boyfriend I loved it.

And I swear Jake was high the whole episode, I really love him right now. He's so carefree and I dont know, he's the only source of nondrama in the show. Im sorry I cant talk formally, when I have a sudden rush of feels typing, its hard to talk in depth as much I want.

NOW TO THE PROMO, CLICK HERE TO WATCH

Okay so we know Eli and Clare make-up because they have their coffee and they're walking together and then he immediately turns her into his chest so pretty good chance he saw Cam or whoever it might be possibly jumping off the roof or whatever form of suicide is being done. But then again: ANOTHER GOOD SIGN ITS CAM

Simpson has Maya and Katie alone in the office and tells them something happened and the hockey team, Tori and Tristan crying.

But what I didnt get is why is Dallas so mad, if hes being selfish and says why is Cam being selfish, I'll be done but Dallas wasnt even helping Cam at all, he should just feel guilty. 

But then Dallas yelling at Alli: You did nothing.

The baby in the promo we saw with the little afro, I thought maybe it had something to do with him. He could be Dallas' child and thats why hes so furious and yelling at Alli maybe. I dont know, but there can be so many questions and theories.

And then the intense breathing at the end of the promo, i cant take it. 6 DAYS LEFT. 

AND NOW TO THE SNEAK PEEK, CLICK HERE TO WATCH . DO NOT READ BEYOND FOR SPOILERS

YES GUYS, GUESS WHAT? WE ARE FINALLY GETTING ECLARE SEX.

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO THINK BECAUSE IM SO EXCITED AND THAT SNEAK PEEK CANNOT BE MORE HAPPIER BUT THEN ITS DEGRASSI. SOMETHING IS BOUND TO GO WRONG AKA TALIA. And right after the sneak peek, they see the person committing suicide, that could have a positive or negative effect on their decision to have sex.

They could see it as positive and that life is short and they want to take the chance now.

Or negative and that they are so traumatized, they arent emotionally read to share that with each other.

But lets just cap this sneak peek real quick. Eli claiming his love for her like he should be because perfect Eclare, but he realizes he's wrong and thats awesome, Clare said she thought at the time she loved him but she didnt, she loves Eli. 

And then she says: I honestly could not contain myself at that moment, i was like are we really getting this. To quote Bianca: Dont be joking around with me here. Eli's face in the first gif, he's so shocked and confused and he doesnt want to jump for joy but hes so excited. and omfg its been so long for him and I can cry but if something goes wrong, Im gonna be so upset because my otp feels are never high for long as we saw with camaya. 

But comment below and tell me what you think or tweet me: munrosblinks. Lets deal with our feels together. Do you think its Cam? Do you think Eclare sex will go uninterrupted, do you even want them to? What do you think of Dallas freaking in the promo? 

THINK YOU KNOW DEGRASSI?

OKAY TOO FAR. NO I DONT KNOW THE SHOW IVE DEDICATED MY WHOLE LIFE TOO. IVE TRIED TO CALM DOWN BEFORE WRITING THIS BUT WHAT IS CALMNESS WITHIN 24 HOURS OF A PROMO.

CLICK HERE TO WATCH 

"Love the smell of high school in the morning" Okay Dallas who is ever ready to go to school, just get away. Why are you so jolly and Drianca, why are you skipping down the halls? They seem to be the only happy ones while everyone else is getting a preview of hell.

Connor and Jenna, can that couple be anymore random just no. They are not cute and so weird, I cant even see it, I think they're working on something together because Connor has those headphones around his neck and a galaxy background, in the moment they kiss and Jenna realizes it was just a in the moment type of thing .

"Im a freaking superhero" OKAY ELI 

ARE YOU ON DRUGS DURING THIS ENTIRE SEASON. THAT WOULD EXPLAIN SO MUCH. 

Okay, I have no clue what's going on between Maya and Katie. Katie: Shut up Maya: Make me.

 I'm on edge right now with Dallas, he is testing me. "Stop being so selfish" HE IS THE LAST PERSON TO EVER TALK ABOUT BEING SELFISH. And Cam is already dealing with so much and its worrying me, and just im terrified. I was talking on twitter with friends who think that it might be Dallas' baby who's on the roof which is why he's having his spaz attacks. 

"It doesnt feel so good, does it?" JEALOUSLY CENTRAL FOR ECLARE. Eli is probably messing with the blond girl to get back at Clare for wanting to sleep with Jake or something. Im still confused as to exactly what him and the girl do or how Clare finds out, but evidently he's trying to hurt her. THEY NEED TO BE ENDGAME OR JUST NO

Maya might or might not have sex with afro boy who Im still confused as to who is he. Is he related to someone or completely random? 

And there's also a clip of Tori and Tristan crying, I feel like something is going to happen to either Adam or Cam because Adam hasnt been in any promos and Cam is surrounded by all these rumors. 

Clare: "EVERYTHING IS FALLING APART" AKA MY LIFE. The possibility again of Adam getting hurt is there because Clare is talking to Drew and on top of her drama with Eli. Hating everything because we still have a week and im hyperventilating, this is not okay. i didnt choose this life.

ARE WE GOING BACK TO THESE HAPPY TIMES NOW OR LATER?

AND OMFG DO YOU GUYS THINK THERE WILL BE A GRADUATION BECAUSE IF THERE IS JUST DONE. I COULDNT BREATH DURING TNG GRADUATION, I JUST CANT. NOT ALLOWING IT.

help me deal with my feels: munrosblinks

I'M SCARED

Stephen posted a link: http://bellmediapr.ca/muchmusic/releases/release.asp?id=16106&yyyy=2013

BEWARE BEFORE YOU START.

Title of the Article: Heartbreak Strikes DEGRASSI in Gripping Two-Part Return Beginning Feb. 15, Exclusively on MuchMusic # # # Powerful Episode Inspires First-Ever MUCHTALKS: DEGRASSI Special, Feb. 22

Heartbreak Strikes #lol killing me slowly. I didnt expect it to be heartbreaking from the first episode. 

"Continuing to break taboos and push boundaries, Bitter Sweet Symphony, Part One features a dramatic story arc that concludes in one of the most emotional and shocking episodes in recent memory with Bitter Sweet Symphony, Part Two, airing Friday, Feb. 22 at 9 p.m. ET. To help viewers process the impact of the episode, MuchMusic has commissioned the new half-hour special, MUCHTALKS: DEGRASSI, to air immediately following Part Two at 9:30 p.m. ET."

WE'RE GONNA NEED HELP PROCESSING? WHY ARE YOU DOING TO THIS TO ME? JUST NO, IM TERRIFIED. KIND OF CONVINCED SOMETHING IS HAPPENING TO CAM, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO MYSELF. CAN FEB 15TH JUST NEVER COME. IM NOT EVEN EXCITED ANYMORE. IM SCARED FOR MY WELL BEING CUS I HAVE NO DAMN CLUE WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN.


PLEASE SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO BREATHE AGAIN. 
HEY WRITERS, 

Talk to me: munrosblinks

THINK YOU KNOW DREW?

We never had so many promos in a row and now that we do, they're driving us crazy, so much we dont know and its slowly eating me alive.

WATCH THE PROMO HERE: http://www.teennick.com/blog/degrassi-think-you-know-drew-ilbl-promo.html

Okay, in the think we do part. They say: less likely to do homework, most likely to drop out and I feel it'll probably all turn around for him this season since we think he's this slacker and apparently this season is going to prove us wrong.
FIRST, I WANT TO POINT OUT. I JUST REALIZED HE'S BACK. He dropped out and was working at the mall, maybe Bianca motivated him.

It's obvious him and Clare are running for president since the seniors are leaving :(
I actually wouldnt have expected Clare to run, I honestly cant see her wanting to do that but I think Drew would probably win. Just because we would expect Clare and Degrassi never does what we expect.

so much angst and competition. I'm so excited to see Clare get all feisty about it.

And Clare pushing Drew, maybe that will be her downfall and Drew will win because he's turning around, coming back to school, especially since they're going to college soon.

I'm a little worried, its making it official that the seniors are leaving. I hope we dont get a graduation. I wont know how to deal. Who do you guys think are gonna win?
*credit to kissesonbenches for gifs

Just silently awaiting my promo promo